Miserable

Addiction sucks. I'm three days into my current fast. It has been a minute-by-minute struggle the entire time. My brain has continuously demanded that I eat. When it wasn't trying to convince me that it would be okay if I ate "just a little". Or telling me that I'm doomed to fail anyway and I might as well give up and eat whatever I want. Or reminding me of just how much weight I still need to lose and how long it will take even if I don't eat anything the entire time, and how it's hopeless and/or not worth the effort. This is addiction. And it is miserable.